i am afraid to fall completely in love. with a person. silly that i did let my self completely depend for safety upon a dog (more than any human) . she (by nature, here is no blame) did not give a damn about me.

so what is the deal. everyone is afraid of this. what is your excuse. ?

i know the potency i'm capable of and am afraid of probably mostly myself's pain. then of another's . and it may be then only because i will be having to view it.

so what , do you think you are capable of depth of love more than the average jane? i

don't know. i feel so sometimes. then i think, oh. everyone thinks thus of himself. i don't know what to think of this. some irishman,

''

Never give all the heart, for love Will hardly seem worth thinking of To passionate women if it seem Certain, and they never dream That it fades out from kiss to kiss; For everything that's lovely is But a brief, dreamy, kind delight. O never give the heart outright, For they, for all smooth lips can say, Have given their hearts up to the play. And who could play it well enough If deaf and dumb and blind with love? He that made this knows all the cost, For he gave all his heart and lost. ''

he rolls it around in my head to frighten me. i don't know what.. . to trust him or to not. . .. . .and also,

'' he bid me take love easy , as the leaves grow on the trees,. but i was young and foolish, and with him would not agree.'' and ''he bid me take life easy , as the grass blows on the wiers,. but i was young and foolish, and now am full of tears.''