there were four things. and there aren't

paul goodwin (a grandfather). who is breathing but is almost not.

some people (some people_ some friends_. and i can't see them anywhere

a person with a name .. who isn't here, and if she is anywhere even at all, she isn't here,

and what looks silly, and what sounds silly, and what no one gives a damn about

.

god.

kate. there is something wrong with you that is very bad.

where the thought of it is bad

and the speech of it is murder.