listen to this song.

how do you run into these things?

where do you get it?

i wish i had that patienc.e,

black

.

i wish i had that strength

how do you do it?

.

i don't want to think about this person anymore, but i go over there. i spend a day . why?

and then afterwards, i say , what have i done, why did i do this?

why do i get these stupid ideas about people. , why do i make these things up? why do i hurt people, or think i do , am?

what am i doing?

today i spent the day wandering . i felt so alone, i don't know why. and wandered. and wanted to wander away to somewhere. and not be alone.

my hands look like dragon scales.

why do i so easily feel alone, just one look or lack of.

diary.

he said, "i was a momma's boy, and then she died." he was drunk. "i am afraid of becoming an alcoholic." he went over to the counter for another beer.

how is it we're closer to one person than the next. and then another more so. .

.on another,

and she

how is it closeness is only felt when he is there, or his thoughts are there,? and these thoughts, of him. from him,. are turned over and over in her mind, until they've been spent. and when they have worn down and are past tattered, when they are gone, why is it the closeness disappears,. ? that is how she is.

and he

he thinks of her and is close. he thinks her thoughts, turns them over, walks on them, finally builds something beautiful out of them, loves them maybe, grows closer to her with only these thoughts. and then shows them to her, she may tear them down. she may contradict what has become from them,. she does something wrong. and he loses the closeness.

when she leaves it somehow begins to grow again.

how is it these two are mirrors?

how can i disappear