when i want very badly to read someone's mind

there is a blankness.

today i ripped up some of the carpet in my room; there is now a large patch of (what was underneath)) green and white nineteensixtyone linoleum. _____________________________________ all day long i can't forget. and i am so dumb for it. but. but something. comfort. birss is comfort. i wish he were here. _______________________ why do i doubt people.